totally bored!

Leave me hypnotized

"You know this place,
you know this gloom?
We've been here before.
When life is a loop, you're in a room without a door.
Pick up the phone and answer me at last.
Today I will step out of your past.
"Trouble that we've come to know will stay with us"",
with every step it slowly grows.
Rub off the rust"

i’m writing a love story

January 24, 2009

i dont know it happened in my dream or my reality…

one late night in January
it was damn cold
i leaned my back against the wall and shivered like a last leaf in the tree
the black shadows of light dimly loomed before my eyes
he stood next to me and was silent as the hundred waves in the ocean
his lips was so promised that i could hardly breathe
he put his hand on my shoulder and suddenly gave me a kiss
the velvet sky collapsed under my feet
i almost numbed, comfortably numb
at that time, i merely wanted to die in his arm to keep the warmth and sweet of his love forever
but he just appears in my life in the blink of an eye
he's just like a wind
like a wind
…

october falls

"Đã nghe rét mướt luồn trong gió"

“She felt very young, at the same time unspeakably aged. She sliced like a knife through everything, at the same time was outside, looking on. She had a perpetual sense, as she watched the taxi cabs, of being out, out, far out to sea and alone; she always had the feeling that it was very, very dangerous to live even one day.”

(Virginia Woolf, Mrs. Dalloway)

mirror in the sky, what is love?

you think i always drown in the pool of sadness but actually it's the way i feel for my life and it will. i feel love by this way also. i can be sad, i can be sorrowful or wrong in love but life is it so i accept all. i dare say i love for my pleasure but it doesnt mean i dont have responsibility about my love. everytime i love someone, i embrace them with my whole heart. i always love them with every little piece of my broken-me.

people always complains about why he or she doesnt love them as they love but (imo) in love, giving is receiving. only when your solitude, sadness or your pain are the pleasure when you think you fall in love with someone, it's truly the time you fall in LOVE. you experience through various feelings and at last you will thank for all that things. i heard someone said they sacrifice for another but it's suck, it will appreciate when you sacrifice for yourself, then you will know exactly how to cherish another.

now, i'm here with many scars in my heart but love still impress me much. i cant say who i love now because loneliness still follow me but i never stop believing in love. it makes my world colourful, pours me into ocean of beautiful sorrow, gets me higher and keeps the desire in me.

and for the things remain, love is all i need.
yes, it's true!

morning on earth?

morning.

i woke up with the sound of the rain pouring down from the great height. my eyes still closed and my mind filled with memories. i remembered the land of my childhood and the people who walked into my life and left their footprints there. i recollected all the things had passed away.

rain fell. the wind blowed cold. i could imagine a thousand drops on the ivy. it's like a necklace made by crystal. this image made me feel gently and tranquillized as i was drifting through the soft cloud. for that moment, everything relieved. all my troubles, my boredoms, my worries flowed away with water.

i have walked in the path of life for about 23 years. sometimes my memories come back and agitate my mind, sometimes my expectance of future ruins my present. it means i have never contented about my whole life so far. my desperations keep me away from everyone. sometimes i wish i could go to someplace where noone related to me. but my love for my beloved ones call me back 'cause i still want them to be around with me so much. i dont know what to do, i dont know what to be, i just know nothing...

but life still goes on and on...



"Lord it's a storm and I'm heading to fall
These sins are mine and I've done wrong
I want you to, oh, I just want you to
come on down..."