“She felt very young, at the same time unspeakably aged. She sliced like a knife through everything, at the same time was outside, looking on. She had a perpetual sense, as she watched the taxi cabs, of being out, out, far out to sea and alone; she always had the feeling that it was very, very dangerous to live even one day.”

(Virginia Woolf, Mrs. Dalloway)

mirror in the sky, what is love?

you think i always drown in the pool of sadness but actually it's the way i feel for my life and it will. i feel love by this way also. i can be sad, i can be sorrowful or wrong in love but life is it so i accept all. i dare say i love for my pleasure but it doesnt mean i dont have responsibility about my love. everytime i love someone, i embrace them with my whole heart. i always love them with every little piece of my broken-me.

people always complains about why he or she doesnt love them as they love but (imo) in love, giving is receiving. only when your solitude, sadness or your pain are the pleasure when you think you fall in love with someone, it's truly the time you fall in LOVE. you experience through various feelings and at last you will thank for all that things. i heard someone said they sacrifice for another but it's suck, it will appreciate when you sacrifice for yourself, then you will know exactly how to cherish another.

now, i'm here with many scars in my heart but love still impress me much. i cant say who i love now because loneliness still follow me but i never stop believing in love. it makes my world colourful, pours me into ocean of beautiful sorrow, gets me higher and keeps the desire in me.

and for the things remain, love is all i need.
yes, it's true!

morning on earth?

morning.

i woke up with the sound of the rain pouring down from the great height. my eyes still closed and my mind filled with memories. i remembered the land of my childhood and the people who walked into my life and left their footprints there. i recollected all the things had passed away.

rain fell. the wind blowed cold. i could imagine a thousand drops on the ivy. it's like a necklace made by crystal. this image made me feel gently and tranquillized as i was drifting through the soft cloud. for that moment, everything relieved. all my troubles, my boredoms, my worries flowed away with water.

i have walked in the path of life for about 23 years. sometimes my memories come back and agitate my mind, sometimes my expectance of future ruins my present. it means i have never contented about my whole life so far. my desperations keep me away from everyone. sometimes i wish i could go to someplace where noone related to me. but my love for my beloved ones call me back 'cause i still want them to be around with me so much. i dont know what to do, i dont know what to be, i just know nothing...

but life still goes on and on...



"Lord it's a storm and I'm heading to fall
These sins are mine and I've done wrong
I want you to, oh, I just want you to
come on down..."

emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me

intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness...

"to blossom blue, is to blossom without you"

"Reality continues to ruin my life."
Bill Watterson

"This is the biggest mistake I could think would save me. I wanted to give up the idea that I had any control. Shake things up. To be saved by chaos. To see if I could cope, I wanted to force myself to grow again. To explode my comfort zone."
Chuck Palahniuk

Đau.

reblog with the band with each letter of your name

LDK

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i've started my September with The Incident. beautiful sadness!

"I find it easier to write songs about the negative side of the world than it is about the happy side of the world. And consequently can you say I'm quite miserable myself and our lyrics are quite miserable, and yes, they are. But it's not because I'm a miserable person, it's because I'm fascinated by the negative aspects of the world in which we're living."
(Steven Wilson)
i terribly love this guy!